Let me be honest: the first draft of this post had a title of “Lists on Lists.” I planned to write a post about my “wish list” or “bucket list” for this upcoming year. Not necessarily goals or resolutions, because I didn’t want to be strongly attached to the things I put on the list. I only wanted some reminders for some dreams or things I wanted to try.
Fast forward five minutes.
I start watching a sermon online. The title of the sermon was “My One Word.” The pastor encouraged us to focus on one word this year instead of making a list of goals or resolutions.
What I took away from the sermon is the knowledge and awareness of how I put everything into lists and into schedules. After gaining that insight, I realized that there are reasons to stop making so many lists: to-do lists, packing lists, resolution lists, lists on lists.
I almost made a list of reasons to stop relying on lists.
Lists can be confining. We make lists to manage our lives. We make lists of things that will make us better that will improve our lives. We jot down grocery lists, lists of things we need to stop doing and start doing.
Do we even have time to live our own lives anymore? Could we boil down our entire life into bullets? No wonder we make lists with bullets–small things that kill. Lists are threatening.
Where is there room for a life of possibility? Where is there room for God to move in our lives? Do we confine our devotional or worship time to a spot on our calendar?
I’m becoming more aware of my list-making, and I’m trying to have more faith in the Lord than in my lists.
“We are meant to experience full joy, not full schedules.” -Fil Anderson
So I encourage you to remain in the Lord’s presence and forget about your lists. Even if that seems unimaginable. It’s hard for me to do it, but I’m going to try. I will be posting my list of goals for my Spain trip, so that’s one list I already made this year.
But I’m thinking my focus for 2014 will be freedom, freedom from schedules, from lists and open to possibility and life change. I can’t wait to hear your words and thoughts about this year too!